Well, I got caught in the Capricorn full moon. That was some fully intense energy from a T-square with some of the biggest and deepest Astrological energies possible.
As we established in the last post, Cancer is the mother, the nurturer, our home environment, providing us with the opportunity to cultivate emotional security in ourselves. Capricorn is the taskmaster, the authoritarian. Here is where our fears, hard lessons, and karma come into play. A sobering energy that ultimately asks : what the hell are you doing here? But really. Purpose become the operative word. Life work, the mark we leave on this world. Where we fit ourselves into society, which is inevitable.
Capricorn in the Tarot is ruled by the Devil. I was afraid of this card for a long time before I understood that the Devil is the pathway to freedom (no, I’m not trying to turn you into a Satanist). It is not until we understand our own bondage that we can free ourselves from it. Societal conditioning, family conditioning, educational conditioning, etc are fed to us since we were born. That doesn’t make any of it true. Often, these things can confine us, stifling our own creative ways of thinking and preventing us from living a life outside of our own fears. Fears of what we need to live up to, fears of how to live our lives the “right” way, fears of how to be, what to say –ultimately the fear to be who we truly are. Even entering down that road of exploration comes with its own set of fears. It’s never ending. That is the Capricorn struggle, who to be on the outside. Who to be in the world. We cannot know what our true path is until we understand our fears. When we understand our fears, the cute lil prison we have going for us, we are then able to identify them, recognize them for the false clouds they are, and do what we need to do to cast them away or integrate them. In this process we better understand what our life path is and ultimately come to understand how we can CHOOSE to leave our mark, our legacy, and not be trapped by what our conditioning has told us. Until then, we are in bondage, trying to control an external force that can never be controlled, living up to external expectations that can never be lived up to.
Cancer is our base, the most private internal area of life where we can feel cozy and centered. When we feel centered we can enter the big bad world and know we have a home to return to no matter what happens out there. We can be our most intimate selves and feel safe. Having this base allows us to climb that Capricorn mountain and carve a place for ourselves in society that only we can build. Solid base, solid build. Simple right? That’s where the full moon comes in and she says “Are you sure you’re really centered though??”, “Um, hi, are you sure this is the path you really want to be on though???”, “I’m just checking, just testing, just making sure.. so i’m going to rock you back and forth a little bit. Promise you’ll grow!” And that’s what she does. Cancer and Capricorn are both inherently about stability. Stability of home and stability of career (or life work, a preferable term I’ll be using from here on). When the full moon in Capricorn comes around, the teeter tottering effect of the full moon energy asks us if our heart is truly into what we are doing. If we are living up to our passions, if we are making the right decisions for us and making proper use of our time. If we are enjoying the process. Issues of the father will come up and ask to be integrated and used as strength. We are left with the breathtaking “What is my purpose? Am I living up to it? Do I have enough emotional strength and fortitude to see it through?” All of the life events that happen to you around this time will be in support of you finding the answer of “Yes”. Karma and Capricorn will never promise this to be an easy process, but who knows, sometimes it is! Sometimes it’s not!! Either way, it’s sobering and will bring you down to earth, make you feel strong and direct you towards a path of fulfillment.
This full moon fell right on Pluto in Capricorn. Pluto is sex, death, rebirth. It is the transformation of the phoenix that destroys itself and rebirths itself into an even stronger entity than what was. Pluto is the shadow, the place we experience trauma in order to enter the underworld, understand why we’re there, bring what we need to back to the surface of the Sun and own it as our own. It is Power. Therefore, this full moon comes along with some sort of trauma or big life change that is needed for necessary growth. With Jupiter in Libra squaring the Moon/Pluto conjunction and the Sun in Cancer, this change will no doubt have to do with other people in partnership. It could be business, it could be personal or romantic, it could even be familial. Either way it will change our approach to our life work. It may not seem it, but whatever has occurred since the full moon and will continue to occur into the waning moon will help get you closer to your true purpose, washing away what no longer serves you and pushing you to focus on what truly matters to your heart and soul. As a bonus, you’ll get to a new level in how to approach your relationships too. That gigantic Jupiter energy is no joke. So the apex of Home, Life Work, and Relationships hath doth been awakened and shall never be the same… until I guess Jupiter moves closer in aspect to Pluto and forms a tighter square in August, but that will be an entirely different narrative. Right now our emotional base is getting worked and this is the most opportune time to understand our truest needs in these areas of life in order to offer the best we can.
The waning moon will offer you a chance to let go of the emotional, professional, and relationship aspects of your life that are no longer working for you. Give it up to the earth, honor her, for in her slow and methodical chaos she is a great and beautiful teacher. Really, get a plant or go spend some time with trees and flowers – their simple splendor will never fail to remind you of your own truth and direction.